my name's eien. i love observing peeps. cuz some of them interest me, while other really gives me quite the headache...(-_-"). i also love 'experimenting' especially with arts ..i love everything that makes me feel at ease. i love my families, friends and even myself. if not i would't be here, still alive, living my life like a 'wheel'..(^_^"). i'm not a good person, and not a bad person either..i can tolerate with peeps if they don't 'bug' me much...well, that's me..and there's no other person can be 'Me'..
it's so dark
i can't see a thing
i didn't even know where i'm
my heart's beating slowly as if it will stop at any moment
i fall deep into darkness day by day
i'm suffocating..it's vexing..i can't even stand on my own
i just lay at the corner
curling and cowering up like an armadillo trying to protect myself from getting hurt
"isn't there anyone who would lend their hand and say that it's alright" i ask myself, whilst i fall in the darkness even deeper
.till when will this continue
again....i'm falling deeper into the darkness...eventho it has been a long time for me, i still can't see a thing...it's pitch black...not even a single light can make through it....its getting colder here cause of humidity, plus there is stench running through the air making me suffocating even more...it's hard to breath...i tried to move..but it's all just a waste...i couldn't even muster a strength...the darkness wrap it arms around me as if never wanting to let me go..why do i feel despair....my chest can barely contain it...it's vexing....how long will i be like this...will i never see the light (tears stream down my face)...*sighing*
i'm falling apart...i no longer have the strength to stand on my own...the feelings keep dragging me deeper as deep as the depth of the sea where no light can penetrate....it's hurting me...strangling me...making me suffocate...making me hard to breath.... is there no hope for me anymore...why am i like this...till when will i be like this...*sobbing*
p/s: sorry didn't meant to make all of u read this...it's just something tht i need to scribble..